Category: Introspection
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Hit he code pretty heavy today. I think for my sanity’s sake I should stop expecting to FEEL productive and just tell myself that I was. The feeling just isn’t gonna happen. I’m not sure what that’s about. I suspect that because there’s so much I want to do that I can only chip away…
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There will be fireworks tonight. The lights are my favorite part. Thinking about fireworks reminds me of the first time I tried to buy a lighter in Alabama around 4th of July. (I moved from Hartford, CT to New Castle, AL in 1990.) The gas station cashier told me I wasn’t old enough to buy…
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That feeling of overwhelm crept up today. There’s still so much for me to learn about Web Development. I have the fundamentals dialed in enough to probably get a client or two. And realistically, I’m sure I know more than anyone that’s considering hiring someone else to build or manage a web site. That might…
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I have Tuesdays and Saturdays. Those are the only two days that every day feels like — one or the other. If I have some kind of obligation where I will definitely be interacting with other humans, that’s a Tuesday’s. Those are things like medical appointments or coaching at the gym. Since I associate Monday…
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I’m not done with Christmas music, and I hope they’re still eggnog left at grocery stores. It’s not denial. It’s what I want. I also want to play at voice acting. The voice acting seems like a natural progression from my narrating blog posts. Plus I already have the gear and setup. Plus that. The…
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Maybe I need a few more failures to secure my dream epitaph. Is that a thing? A dream epitaph? Here are some ideas I have: He tried…at everything…seriously He was fearless He didn’t believe in limits May he rest after punching up Heaven’s Welcome Packet He took you for a ride if you asked him…
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1998 was a good year. 2018 was pretty damn good too. My military career is finished, but this doesn’t feel like the end of anything except wearing a uniform. When I transitioned into the military 20 years ago, I was excited but terrified. Leaving the military, I feel like that kid all over again but…
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It was clear to me very soon after retirement, maybe even before, that I could not rely on my feelings for motivation. In fact, I can’t rely or wait on motivation either. For me, the trial period is over. I’m convinced that waiting until I feel up for writing, designing, coding, or completing a course…
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I like to make a big deal online about my birthday. It’s equal parts entertaining myself and being ironic. I’ve been retired from the military for 3 months, but it feels like I’m on leave indefinitely with a lumberjack’s beard. If I had to describe my mental, I’m lingering between what I should be doing…